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welcome to the first issue of OPALESCENT GHOST this is a newsletter where we do what we want how we want it and we don’t care if what we want to do makes sense or is *for* anything, we don’t care if what we want to do isn’t going to get us anything or “build” anything or be “productive” or DO ANYTHING BUT BE PLEASING in the moment of its creation
the last newsletter you saw in this space had a different ethos and it has taken a moment for Tina to figure out what the new iteration of the newsletter is doing what I am asking of her
(she’s worried that if she does what she wants without caring about anything other than feeling pleased with what she’s creating in the moment of its creation, she will be letting everyone down. she still thinks she’s somehow responsible for everyone’s well-being, and if she could guess what would create well-being in everyone who comes across what she’s written, she would focus on doing that and then everyone would be happy and she would be safe.
does that seem sensible to you it does not seem sensible to me)
she’s dying to apologize to you for all of this. I won’t let her do it head on but I have let her win a little by telling you about her apologetic state which I’m trying like hell to abolish forever when it’s pointless like this. she can apologize when she’s done something wrong
she’s also desperate to explain the nature of this experiment. I’m trying to tell her “People will figure it out as they go” and she keeps thinking “But they’ll be confused and people don’t like being confused”and I’m trying to tell her “WHO CARES” and also “SOME PEOPLE LIKE IT” and WOULDN’T YOU RATHER BE CONFUSED THAN BORED
Hahahaha Tina is bringing to my attention a story from her past that’s relevant to her fears. Hahahahaha I’ll tell it to you.
Once, briefly, she was the marketing director for a theatre company of which she was an ensemble member. Small theatre company, everyone had to pitch in. They were about to produce a play by a playwright named Lawrence Krauser, a play called “Horrible Child”. They needed a cheap marketing campaign. Tina had the idea that all the company members could draw terrifying pictures with crayons on plain printer paper of this horrible child doing horrible things and all twelve company members gathered one afternoon with paper and crayons and drew terrifying, childlike pictures and then they mailed these pictures out to a portion of their mailing list with no explanation to build BUZZ :|
The mailing list was confused AT BEST
The mailing list was also terrified. Some of the mailing list left the mailing list. There was outrage, also, among the mailing list. The theatre company had to send out letters to their entire mailing list apologizing for frightening them and explaining that they had been “building buzz”
Tina was not the marketing director any more after that.
hahaha i like that story. was I involved? did I inspire the idea in the first place? ahh, that’s a shrewd question no comment
back to the present day: do any of you find any of this frightening? a newsletter has appeared in your inbox, one you’ve subscribed to you’re all unharmed I presume
(see! they’re unharmed)
More newsletters will arrive. No, you don’t get to know in advance what will happen in them or when they will arrive. She doesn’t get to know either. If an idea comes to Tina for this newsletter and she has fun executing the idea then you will get the newsletter. If an idea comes to Tina for this newsletter and she does not have fun executing the idea you will never know it happened. She’ll have to wait for the next train. There is no timetable. Everyone will have to stay ready.
